you can't hide your watery eyes

i've got watery eyes.  tmi, i know.  but it seems worse now..... and my oncologist doesn't want to give me steroid eye drops because shes afraid i will get an infection.  i totally get that....so i'm looking at homeopathic drops.  i know similasan has a great reputation (i've used it on the kids for pink eye to wonderful results) and they are cheap enough to try.

it's interesting reading the different bulletin boards online....the lymphoma ones are a great help.  when i read what people talked about in the past, i find stuff like:

--- any speck of dust will mess with you if you have little to no eyelashes, or eyebrows.

--- sometimes you have watery eyes because you aren't letting yourself cry.

--- are you drinking enough water?  you have to flush out all those chemicals.....it's better to piss it all out than cry later.

---just to complicate things--- sometimes watery eye can mean that a person actually has dry eyes....that their eyes don't produce lubricating tears, only cleansing ones.

so much gold from people who have walked down the path you have.  i love the internet, and the bold people who ask questions.

i'll go to walgreens to-night.  i actually love the place.  when i was young, i used to go there every saturday with my father....the mall we went to had a diner attached to the drug store.  i got a coke, my daddy got a coffee.... he read quietly from his paper, and i ..... i don't remember what i did, but i wasn't bored.  sometimes it's wonderful just sitting, and breathing, and looking around.....safe with someone you know will protect you no matter what.

letting myself cry now......