a little woozy. no worries. i only work four hours to-day.
my right arm won't go all the way down. bad flashback from the time before chemo, when i had the tumour under my arm. but... it's ok. we'll make do.
i feel lighter.
hopefully i can keep drinking water, and sleeping better. i didn't get to bed as early as i wanted to... sleep wouldn't come. i think i was chasing it too much....
no news yet. i hope i won't get a call until thursday. that's when i come in at night... i don't want to miss her call.
i gained hope by reading this: http://dslrf.org/breastcancer/content.asp?L2=3&L3=7&SID=132&CID=2019&PID=22&CATID=36
Studies have shown that the chance of missing a positive lymph node if we remove the tissue in the lower two levels of the armpit is less than 2 percent.
surely what they took out was the last of it. surely i'll be on "watch and wait" rather than "leap, and chemo"....
but... i won't expect anything. expectation leads to sadness at this point. all i can do is remain calm, and think of work... home... school... the ocean....
anything but what could happen.
one day, i'll get over this "i'll think about that to-morrow" phase....
hopefully soon....
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