the money

i'm going to have to learn not to cry every time people ask me for money.

the biopsy wanted us to pay an $150 co-pay. i cried over the phone when i found out, shocking the nurse, and embarrassing myself.

now, i just found out the pet scan wants $2,000. luckily, we can pay it off in installments ... but the lady will call me to-morrow to make sure that i have some form of payment before i go in there.

Lord knows how much the echo will be.

i need to be real. this is going to be expensive. there is no way i can keep from that. but, the sooner it's all done, the sooner i can go back to work, and earn again. and maybe one day i can learn to save money.

i just wish something like this wasn't attacking me from all angles.