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talked a bit more to the lady ahead of me in the radiation line.  it ends up she has to have the earliest time...because she's the one who does it twice a day.  she has a type of cancer that grew when she was on chemo.  more aggressive techniques are needed.

she's been through a touch road.

i talked a bit to her, and more to the gentleman who was with her.  he was at the hospital to get a procedure done, but he wanted to be with her before he went in.  he called her his "hunting buddy, his riding companion, and his best friend"  and said that he would always make sure that the battle against cancer was, as he said, "not just her, but us."

he was strong, and good, and she was, too.  i hope they get to walk on firmer ground soon.

it's good to talk to people who're going through the same things you are.  i felt stronger, in a way, after the conversation.  more focused.  less pessimistic.  it helps me to think of others, and how strong they are.

it helps to believe i can be strong, too.

my treatment was easy to-day.  i got the feeling i was in a better position, to-day.... there wasn't as much scooting around, and the camera didn't seem to take as many pictures.  my upper body aches, but i don't know if it's because of the treatment, or the arm exercises i was doing yesterday.

i need to ask if i should wait on exercise when i go in to-morrow to see the dreaded doc.

i need to stop thinking of these docs as dreaded.

i need a nap.

:-)