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before going in to treatment, i got into a discussion with garbo and sassy woman about hair.  garbo took off her wig, and showed us how thin her hair was on the top.  i told her about biotin.  sassy said the reason why she wasn't growing hair was because she kept covering it up with a wig.  the wig was rubbing all the new hairs off.  the wig made her look old.

i only said that she may be more comfortable without the wig during radiation.... or quick trips to walmart.

garbo was amazed by our openness.  sort of shocked that she looked old.  held her wig to her like a security blanket.

i won't be surprised if she decided to come in without the wig... but i swear it seemed like we were staging an intervention.  why was it so important to us?

grow.  be open.  be brave.  get back to normal as soon as you can.

live.

i'm very discouraged inside.  i don't want to continue doing treatments.  i don't want to continue playing watchdog over all these symptoms.

but, for one moment, i caught garbo's amazement, and was happy to tell her that the real her was beautiful.

may all that go through silent fights find sweet resolutions.


soon.....